Week 5

5w 2d today

Still nerve wracked, yet very positive. This week I feel more relaxed than I did last week. See, week 5 is when things have previously started going wrong for me and I’m still praying every time – or as I prefer to call it, chanting positively. Thanking God for every uneventful toilet visit. Asking bean to burrow in deep and settle him/herself for the next 35 weeks. I’m also still 90% without symptoms.  Symptoms are a major obsession for me right now! Boobs are just a little tender – I wish they’d be more so!!!

Other symptoms I think I may have include the occasional CM – again, happens everytime, so not sure if really a symptom. Lower abdomen happenings are aplenty, but I’m thinking of them being positive signs of things happening as they should be. Thank the Lord none of these feels like period pain – that would just drive me absolutely mad with worry. Nausea – zilch! Growing boobs – zilch! Heightened sense of smell – zilch! Going off certain foods and craving others – zilch!

I know, I know, it’s only been a week and 2 days since I found out…. Well, I can’t wait for it all to kick in and reassure me bean is well cosied in there and intending to stay with me till September/October!

Taking my aspirin, pregnacare, vitamin C, zinc and extra folic acid religiously, and hoping and praying that these are helping.

I’m having occasional nose bleeds… or rather nose spotting (blow nose and a little bloody mucous present) – I think this is a side effect of the aspirin – will bring up with RMC specialist at my clinic appointment next week.

Oh, happy news…. had a scan yesterday and all is as it should be at 5 weeks. Been booked in for another scan in 2 weeks, and I cannot wait! This really made my day and has helped me relax that little bit more.

Actually, talking of scans – if I’m offered one next week at my clinic appointment and all is well, I may well cancel the one in 2 weeks time. Or I might keep it…. I do like the idea of being able to have a scan at the hospital I work in as it’s so convenient and easy and only takes 15 minutes and I’m back at work… will discuss this at clinic, work out something, as I’m sure 2 weekly scans are more than sufficient for me, rather than weekly.  Might have one at clinic at Mary’s and the one scheduled for 2 weeks at UCH then just continue with UCH? I know, I’m rambling now…. Will work something out, I’m sure… I’m so lucky to have these scanning opportunities and aware of the fact others need scans too, so won’t be greedy. Plus, what’s the point of having more scans than is necessary?

Note to Bean:

Well done my little miracle, you’re the size of an apple seed! Keep growing for mummy; I really, really, really want to see your little heart beat next week or the week after! We love you so much already and are looking forward to all the little milestones you’ll be achieving till we meet you. Stick hard sweetie, and please know you are so very much wanted and have me and daddy so happy with anticipation right now! Lots and lots of love, Mama x x x x x x