What a week! Been up and down - elated one minute, overly worried the next to the point of tears! I've barely had any symptoms, apart from mildly tender breasts and the lower abdomen happenings (which worry me at the best of times anyway). This is the furthest I've come with a pregnancy, and still taking it one day at a time, but the worry times are so intense they leave me so exhausted mentally!
I have to remind myself that I've had RMC tests which found the possible reasons I miscarried my last pregnancies and that I'm on aspirin to help me along this time, but the worry kicks in and all reasoning goes out the window. I also reassure myself of the fact that most pregnant ladies probably feel this way too (is this true?).
Still, I intend to enjoy this experience for as long as it lasts... I know the worries are a part of it all, but when those mad periods lift up, I do enjoy myself. It's all too special not to!
So glad I have a wonderful husband that understands the next 8 months will be tough on him too, poor man!
Great news though - had two loo trips overnight and woke up lying on breasts that were very tender. Loving this! More tender breasts please, less lower back pain (too much like period pain, me no like!). And not sure but I may have a little bit of nausea? That tiny little bit, not sure I've not made it up? Still eating like a trooper though. Also, I found myself retching while preparing the cat's food (boiled gizzards). Jeez, how do people eat those things?
I also had my referral letter come through yesterday for the RMC antenatal clinic run by Prof Regan's team. Only problem is, they've printed a later date (March 2nd), though I got given Feb 17th verbally. Will have to call them to confirm dates. Whatever happens, I feel fabulous most times, and I'm keeping the positive mental attitude that this is for the long haul. Too bad I can't see the future, though I can dream of the best, huh?
Anyway, very thankful, I'm on new territory, now counting down to the next scan date on Feb 24th where I'll see Bean's heartbeat. I really cannot wait!
Note to Bean:
Keep doing what you're doing baby! Get those hormones circulating; mummy doesn't mind even more tender breasts! I know I worry sometimes honey, but I believe in you. I just want you to be well at all times, and know you will be. Human nature just makes us so prone to emotions... I'm mostly over the moon with your existence though, so well done for bringing me this far. I look forward to seeing your little body again and seeing your tiny heart beat. Love you so very much! Stay cosy, keep growing! Mama x x x
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