Might as well...

I'm being positive. It's the only way to be. Following on from It's faint but it's there post on Tuesday 2/2/10, I feel so blessed to report that so far all is well. I know tradition dictates that at this stage things are kept quiet, 'just in case', but you know what? I've been here before. I've kept it quiet before. And when it has all gone wrong, I've wanted to talk about it so I'm able to heal and move on. It's easier talking about things when the listener has been kept in the loop. I cannot expect my best friend to support me after a miscarriage when I choose to keep the joy of my pregnancy away from her. Share the good, share the bad. So, even though I'm not telling all in real life that I'm pregnant, I don't mind sharing it online. A few friends already know and are helping me in prayer for the best. I've told my siblings, whom I suspect have told mum - more prayers, which is fabulous as far as I'm concerned. And of course, if you're here reading my blog, you most certainly know. I don't know how people stay sane keeping such news to themselves. I just cannot! I feel like I'm bursting and just want to tell the world!

Anyway, I'm pregnant. I can't keep it to myself and I'm gradually filtering the news to my nearest and dearest. Still early days, I know, and anything could happen but whatever happens will be dealt with appropriately. I'm at a point in my life where I refuse to choose guilt and regret. I refuse to be a victim of anyone and anything. I choose positivity and if unfortunate things happen, I survive them. I don't fall victim to them. And that includes loss of any kind.

I've been keeping a journal. I'll bring it along here. After all, if I'm sharing online, I might as well share it here on my journal. That's what it's here for. Watch this space. Wish me luck for a positive outcome. After 4 previous losses, I don't see why things shouldn't go well for us this time. So, on that note, here's my story so far.....