I admit it, one track minded!! I need more work!

Retrospective entry  - Friday 19th February 2010 2pm-ish at work.

Breasts are now getting agonisingly sore, but I’m utterly loving it! Continuous mild nausea too whose presence I’m absolutely enjoying! Heartburn starting to make it's presence felt too - lovely! Lower abdomen happenings - learning to accept these rationally now, though they still freak me out most of the time, sending me running to God in private prayer so I'm sane at all other times around people. Not enjoying the feelings. Enjoying the fact they are there. Why would one love and enjoy the presence of pain and discomfort? After all, I’m no masochist? Well, it reassures me Poppy Heart is thriving, so I can concentrate on enjoying the miracle developing within rather than be sick with worry wondering if all is well. Now, I know the afore mentioned symptoms are no guarantee all is as it should be, but they reassure me of Poppy’s presence, especially when they are getting more and more pronounced – means Poppy Heart is growing along with her placenta and is making healthy doses of pregnancy hormones. This is what I love! Puts a healthy bounce in my step! (.... well, apart from when my hurried, bouncy steps are towards the toilet, chanting in prayer that all is well when I knicker check. It's madness, but we all have our mad moments, right??).

Little note to Poppy Heart, formerly known as Bean:

Keep it going baby! You’re doing so well and I’m so happy to roll off the bed in the morning and having to take it easy because you’re sending me signals that tell me you are okay. Keep that heart beating strong and keep growing sweetie! I don’t know about you, but I really want the time to fly so I can get to meet you in September/October. Lots and lots of mama love. x x x x x x